Bram Esposito

Category: life

  • Spring is coming

    This week has brought us some real sunshine.

    Over the last months, different flowers tried to announce the end of winter, only to be covered by snow again. It’s been many years since we had a “real” winter like this one. But it seems like the sun is winning ground.

    I’m not complaining 😊

  • snow

  • An update on my writing ambitions

    It’s been a long time since I last posted to this blog. 

    Although I often thought about posting, I have not come around to it. And that got me thinking about what stops me from posting. 

    These are a few topics that came up:

    1. Stage freight
      I’m very aware of the fact that I’m publishing my thoughts. 20 years ago I was less hesitant to post. Times have changed, and in the era of social media it became clear that sharing things online is not without consequences. 
      I often wonder: who’s waiting for this photo, this remark, this post. Isn’t my writing pretentious, am I being well-informed. How is my language, how do I express myself. 
    2. Time
      A lot has happened in the last months. A lot that could serve as inspiration for writing actually. I’ve read a lot of good things, had good conversations. And while I’d love to share more of what keeps me busy, at most times I don’t feel the energy to keep myself focused on writing. I would write a quick draft, think ambitious thoughts and then never return to it. Or while writing, start to feel kind of bored and want to stand up and walk away from it. It’s some kind of performance anxiety or fear of the unknown. Will I finally be able to break through and publish something?
    3. Intention
      And while we’re on the topic of time: while my inner dialogue is writing page-long pieces during the day, in the evening I’m way too often doomscrolling Reddit or Mastodon. Not a single synaps is launching the suggestion to start to write. 
      After forcing myself to observe this behaviour,  I realise I’m often led by impulse instead of intention.  
      It’s motivating that just having the intention to write can already lead to these insights. 
    4. I am a project starter
      Not a project finisher. Apparently. 
      It’s with a reluctance that I admit it. But I have to be honest with myself. And knowing this, I might actually be able to focus on finishing things instead of jumping on the new interesting adventure.  

    This post has gotten quite personal. And that’s exactly why I wanted to write in 2025. To bring clarity in cloudy thoughts. Observe things and give direction.

    If I succeed once this year, I’ll consider it a success 😉. 

  • It’s been a while

    Almost 2 months without writing. Two months filled to the brim with work and non-work related stuff.

    2025 is an exceptionally good, but also demanding year for us. Like annual rings on a tree, this year will be an extra wide ring, as a sign of exceptional growth.

    Genrative Art of annual rings by Ahmad Moussa
    Image from https://www.gorillasun.de/blog/radial-perlin-noise-and-generative-tree-rings/

  • Thrifted clamps

    Thrifted these 3 clamps this week for € 1,20 each. I will be clamping all the things from now on!

  • meet Ruby

    Ruby, our cat

    meet Ruby

  • Exploring some new city neighbourhoods

    Exploring some new city neighbourhoods

  • The last weeks, I’ve been overwhelmed by work, so no time to work on the blog or write posts. Also a bit depressed by the state of the world. And some family troubles that need time and attention.

    Here’s to a positive outcome for all of this.

  • I imported my Instagram archive

    Quite a bumpy road and it took way more time than I planned, but now I have my full Instagram archive on this blog. I do not care very much about my Facebook or Twitter history, but I’m really attached to these images, that take me back to earlier years.

    The content is mine now, and I’m going to spend some time to clean things up and make the browsing more pleasant.

    Take a look

  • On post length

    Social media got me spoiled. I’m used to reading short bursts of less than 200 characters.

    When finding longer pieces that I want to read, I fall into the trap that most people will likely recognise: file it away for later, which means “never read it”. Browser bookmarks, del.icio.us, pinboard1 and now Notion haven’t saved me from this behaviour2.

    For me, the sweet spot in post length seems to be somewhere around a hundred words or less, see for example Manton Reece‘s posts, that I find comfortable to read.

    Writing something in under a hundred words is less easy than it looks though.

    1. Sadly, Maciej Cegłowski appears to be a dreadful person ↩︎
    2. There is something that I want to try with this blog related to bookmarking though. ↩︎